Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Love and other things

Hey all! 

THEN AGAIN. It's been awhile! There's lots of thing that happen which I should arrange it in proper way to explain everything. Which way I shall explain it, we shall see. I could not recall everything in details as I am not the person who can remember things exactly. One thing that I know is I am moving to another phase of my life soon. Not that very soon but in within few more weeks insyaAllah. 

Dear Lovely People, 

After reading all over again in my blog. All the posts that had been stated here. I had realized how much ups and downs that I had been through with him. The love of my life. He had been such a dearly and even such a jerk last time. But Alhamdulillah after all that we had been through, Allah had put His fate to us. 

We will get ENGAGED people! In few more weeks. Everything is in the mist to complete. What else can I say? I'm speechless when one day in the phone call he said let's get married. Yet the next week his parents come and asked for my hands from my parents. It happened! The thing that I thought it is just a dream that will never come true back then. It DO COME TRUE! In such, I can never say anything else except Alhamdulillah for what He had gave me. The love of my life. The person who had become so much to me after my parents. He had showed me how to love and live with the one we love the most. Date had been set and the time will come soon. I'm just someone who don't think that I deserve all those at one point. But Allah had better plan for me. He knows the best at one person. 

I'm happy more than the ordinary as that news was not the only one I had. More. I and my dearly best friend had opened and yet make it known to others. We had opened the Der Susse which a dessert maker company. Me as usual make the cake and Red Velvet is a definite choice. *well. knowing that I only can make those at the moment* What else can we say, the passion had made us in such and we want to let the rest taste what me made best to others. Cookies and brownies even bread and butter pudding she made it to sell it the others. See. She have such of art to bake and it turns out well. After opened up the company which had not been registered yet, we had built our own flyers, name cards and also small little thing to make us recognizable. Do visit us : :)

Last but not least, I am now working in the travel agent company as our small little company is still can't support us in monetary for one month. Thus I had decided to put the baking wise as the side income for me. Well, travel is still my passion. Working makes me opened up mind to progress and building network also one of the reason to come back to the line. I am happy and thankful for all that Allah had arrange for me. Nothing else other than Alhamdulillah. I'm happy. 

Afternoon and this is my update from the last time. Loves.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Pre & Post Birthday Celebration

Who the hell gave me this idea. I mean to wrote this Pre & Post. Sounds like a wedding post here. Might look like one. But hey, it's my birthday that I'm talking about. Lets see what else that I can wrote it about. 

PRE BIRTHDAY, which fall a day before the birthday date; 14 Oct. I went out with my dearly "lesbian" partner to find stuffs in Ikea. Went there and end up we hang out with other friends also. After some walkout and go round and round, end up I got my favourite cake! Sponge cheese cake! SO happy! Even it's not that expensive like what other people want, it is THAT nice OK. Special thanks to my ex colleague and her friend. Appreciate it so much! I really love it. Hugs. This was unexpected and so did they come over at the first place. 

POST BIRTHDAY! This is the amazing one so far. Me and best friend went for Grand Lexis PD. Like how we always did. Pleasuring ourselves after one great escapes to another. This time the Grand Lexis is our choice. Comes with private pool in every room, we did enjoyed it very much. Worth paying I should say. Everything in the hotel do satisfy our needs. Indeed, that is how she arranged such of sweet surprise belated birthday celebration in the room! 

This is how she planned it, after all done, she told me this. She asked me to jump in the pool and hang around while she asked weather to have any dessert send in the room since we are pleasuring ourselves. Then there goes my choice, Apple Pie with Vanilla Ice Cream. Very tempting. So while she is on the phone at that time, I did not suspect anything. Seriously, I did came sit next to her and still taking pictures. Still, I did not expect anything. After we hang around the pool, swim, dance like crazy, took pictures etc etc. Comes the people knocked the door, she ran to the door and I ran the other side since I just because I am wearing something improper. Then she took quite a time at the door. After few minutes, tadaaa! My God. Such of sweet moments that I ever received in my whole life! Thanks Raja Puteri NurNisaa, you had done so much to me. Appreciate everything that you had done. Thank you so much. Me love you best friend. Forever.

Friends, and this is what they had gave to me in on my birthday months. Love much.

Friday, October 19, 2012


It's been awhile right people? Anyway, let's start and update the whole thing now now. Since I'm yet very happy. 

15 Oct 2012. 
The best date ever in this whole year and yet very very memorable to me. WHY is that? Lots of updates and HEY! It's my BIRTHDAY! I turned 23 years old and this is amazing. Feeling of being in this age? I don't know yet. CLUELESS maybe. HAHA.

The BEST birthday give, *let's see who had gave me such of wide smile on my birthday*

LOVE; MuhammadHafiz - This is what he had send to me. *even we are in the big fight right at this moment*

:- Epy besdy 2 u, epy besdy 2 u, epy besdy 2 my cinta epy besdy 2 u.. selamat ulng taun ke 23 syg.. hope besdy awk taun nie membwa seribu erti dlm hdup awk, org tau org byk uat awk mkn atu smpi awk jd gle.. org respect awk sbb awk usaha gak dpt kn org.. akhirnye org jd milik awk gak.. org hlng xnk lyn awk 4 bln tu bkn pe org sje nk tgk awk cm mne kalo org xde dlm hdup awk.. tp terbkti awk xbleh hdup tnpa org.. org sgt b'sykr lpas org uat istikarah minx ALLAH tnjk sape jodh org, awk yg de dlm mmp org.. insykALLAH kalo xde pape hlngan kte kawin syg.. hope awk xcm dlu ag, kalo xtau xpe tau siap la.. hrap org la p'tama wish bsdy awk.. sory org xpnah bg awk hadiah, yg org nk awk tau org syg awk lbh dr awk sygkn org, hope awk la org yg p'tama n awk gak org t'akhr dlm hdup org.. kte bina rmah tngga yg bhagia syg xnk ada antra kte uat hal.. love u syg miss u so much dear.. lpas bce kol org la jgn lpe tau syg.. SAYANG NORYADZREIN SANGAT2.

That is how much he wrote for me on my birthday. And of course, I cried! He is the only one that make me feel so special and yet the ONLY ONE that understand me most. No matter how hard the situation is, he always be there for me. Without asking why, he will just do it for me. He never ask for return, but the honesty that he ask is more than anyone can imagine. Yes for anyone else, maybe it sounds so simple. But for me, it's not. To maintain and pleased him the way he want it and yet in his way, it's obviously NOT THAT EASY. In this four years plus, I had break my leg the way it should be and trying to give the level best to be with him. Alhamdulillah, he is worth fighting and waiting for. Thanks sayang.. For being there for me. All the time. LOVE.

FRIENDS! ; Thank you for ALL the warm wishes that I received from anywhere and everyone that knows me. I LOVE EVERYONE of you. Up until today, I haven't reply them yet. I don't find the time yet. Sorry friends. Not that I don't appreciate you, just it will take sometimes for me to reply to all of you. Promised that I will reply. :)

: NURIESYA NADIA! <--- THIS WOMAN! We had went through though times for the past four months since June. The one that I had frustrated to. She is the special gift for me for this birthday. WHY? Friendship. Forgiveness. That is what she had gave to me. After all this while, and after what had happened, she wished me! We had become friends AGAIN. I was smiling widely in the morning on my birthday since she Whatsapp me before went off to office. That what she did and she even update her blog and dedicate it for me, 

" Dear si gemok pendek , happy belated birthday. May Allah bless u with joy and happiness. Semoga masih boleh tinggi even rasenya peluang amat sangatlah tipis. Kahkahkah. Semoga awak happy dengan orang yang tersayang especially dengan ibu ayah dan Apot gendut. Miahahaha. Hope lepas ni no more fighting. Penat mak jemah nak gado dengan awak , tak challenging langsung !! Semoga cepat cepat kawen and dapat baby. Minta minta tak pendek cam awak. :P Last but not least , ni je birthday pressie yang kite mampu bagi. A new chapter insyaAllah. Daaaa~ Sambung skype jom. Byeeee !!~ "

After all, we did not asked each other what had happened before this and yet each of us know that who is making up stories and who is not. I do not want to know about what had happened. Anything happened for reasons and I shall thank her for everything. Even how bad the situation before this, she been there with me and InsyaAllah everything shall remain the way it supposed to be. Thanks babe for being there. I can't give like how you had showed me but I will try my best not to ruined this for second time. Whatever happens after this, we shall talk to each other before blaming. Note to myself too. I can't finished thank you but no other words than THANK YOU.

: FAZLI, AZLINA, FATIN & MIRA = Surprise birthday cake in Nasi Kandar Berkat Ariffin during lunch. This great buddies had gave me such of memorable birthday as they bought me cake! During lunch and at Mamak. How sweet is that? Even a slice of cake and very simple so called celebration, I do feel touched. They are the peoples that being with me through ups and downs. They always be there for each other in need. Thanks for the lovely cake everyone. These people never turned back wherever or whatever we had gone through. I do LOVE ALL OF YOU VERY MUCH. Hope this will never ends. 

Born in 15 Oct 1989 and this is my 23 years old birthday story! :)

Thursday, October 4, 2012


Hopefully at this time everyone does not get tired from my unending story about us. Alhamdulillah, as for now, we are happy with each other. No other person had tear us apart and as for now, we are that happy. 

Both of us had a good time whenever we talked, laughed to each other, make silly conversations become so interesting. After all, yes, I am happy as for now. Whichever sadness that had happened between us, I shall forget and try to make this relationship at this time; grows better and stays forever. InsyaAllah.

Dear Muhammad Hafiz, PLEASE let this happen forever. Nothing else that I ever want. Me and just me until Allah end the relationship between us. Allah had put the faith for us to let this relationship grows and I really hope this will be forever. 

Muhammad Hafiz and Noryadzrein; THIS IS US

Sunday, September 23, 2012


Hello everyone! As I browse through YouTube, watched some of the videos around and I end up with this song. Quite old one but the lyrics shown how much this woman missed the guy and this is what I feel. I miss my CINTA so much. He is that far and we did not contact that much like how we used to. I MISS HIM! Ya Allah, please let this love grows and never die in each other heart. Let's enjoy the lyric. 

Tergoda aku 'tuk berfikir 
Dia yang tercinta 
Mengapa t'lah lama tak nampak 
Dirimu disini 
Jangankan ingin ku tersenyum 
Tak ada gairah 
Kuingin s'lalu bersamamu 

Kini ku resah... 
Diriku lemah tanpamu 

Gapai semua jemariku 
Rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu 
Kuingin bersama berdua selamanya 
Jika kubuka mata ini 
Kuingin s'lalu ada dirimu 
Dalam kelemahan hati ini 
Bersamamu... Aku tegar... 

Aku tegar

Song : Tegar; Singer : Rossa

Right at this moment all I can think about is having him for my entire life. Please pray the best for us dear friends. Cinta, you had thought me so much until I can't live without you beside me. May Allah hear us and grant the wish. InsyaAllah. 

17062008 and this is my unending LOVE story. MuhammadHafiz. 

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Life Essay

Well hello everyone! 

Greetings from the office PC! :D

It's been awhile since the last post right? *like I do have any readers* HAHA. Lots of thing happened in my entire life. Where shall I begin? Too much to talk about as this had changed my life and my thought and also my entire mood! Sounds so happy? YES I AM! On your mart, get set.. GO!

Myself ; I had went through one major operation in my entire life. I had never been in one before this. After all, it is just minor operation in the hospital. Of course! It takes less than one hour to be inside the Operation Theatre and more than 2 months to be fully recovered! Sigh. The one that I talked about is Tonsil Operation. This freaking thing had live in my throat since God knows when. When tonsil food dietary is not followed, that is what happen, it's getting bigger and that's one of the reason why I still keep having high temperature fever. When it is more than few times in one month, doctor in the clinic had suggest me to refer to the hospital. Yeah! On the 15th Ramadhan, I had been admitted and on the 06 August, I had gone through the freaking operation. Took less than one hour and once I open my eyes, it had been removed! Sigh. Painful like hell. Like I know how the hell feels like. Lots of things I had faced during 6 days in the hospital. Whereby both of my parents, both of my bestfriends and also the peoples that do have the affect in my life. I can't never finish thank to all of you that take good care of me during that time. It do showed how much I can count on someone and everyone. It is not I'm comparing on that only but somehow, that is where you can see it right? So sorry if others do feel like it's inappropriate. Then there's go my healing process. One month of MC. Sounds so good right? But, that is the time where I do think about work. How much it is important to me and life, that is the time I'm seeing it. So called MUHASABAH DIRI. Well, I always take some of work given for granted. Playful and do not care. But, one month of being at home, it do make me feel the other way of it. Not as easy as how anyone want it to be. The trust that people had put on us and anyhow, you have to portray it the way it should be. That's what I learned. After come back, here I am in the company, trying to better. Pray for me dear friends!

Love ; READ THIS PROPERLY! PLEASE. My dearly Muhammad Hafiz, MINE!! Then again, Allah had a better way to make us realize that how much we need each other in this life. Alhamdulillah! I can't never be happier than what had happened between us. Up until this moment, we are like how we used to. Loving each other again. Care, warmth feelings of the love been felt again. All these that we shared, used to be memories and yet now we are in love again. Love words, missing each other *because he is that far*; even get back to the dreams that we want to end this life together. All those had become the dream again. Not the dream that had left broken without fulfilling it. Praying hard for these not to be only words left without unspoken, whoever is reading this, please send your prayers for us. I'll shall appreciate and thank you my whole life. Maybe for some of you this will be too much drama or attentions that I need but from what I had been through with him, yes. I do need everyone prayers to be with me. The other day, he admitted that he could not love other person like how he love me. Ya Allah, nothing is even more worth it that having him saying all those right in my ears through phone and back together with him. After all searching for someone that really I need in this life, I found out that he is the only one and hoping this is the same for him. Forever is my promise till death do us apart. InsyaAllah, NO ONE ELSE other than you CINTA. I shall cherish this forever for my life. 

Lots of things happened towards me and life in these few moths includes the UNEXPECTED proposal that I had from one of the client recently during Aidilfitri. Not so much that I wanted to talk to because I had been trying to forget it too. Not important AT ALL because this person will never EVER have the place in my life. Someone that want to make me the forth wife for the sake of he love me without even knowing me? That's bullshit. Sorry for the words but true. No one fall in love without knowing each other right. Sucks. OK let's end this because it annoys me much. LOL.

There you go. Tired reading this and that? Well, that's what happen when you had been keeping it in drafts after few weeks! Thanks for reading! Have a good day even your mood is swinging. HAHA. 

Daughter of MR Johari bin Yahya and yes, she fall in LOVE yet still ayah's stubborn daughter! 

Thursday, August 16, 2012


Seventeenth, the number that I shall remember the most. This is the date where everything begins between me and him. This date always bring me back to the memories that we shared and we sailed with each other for the past few years. Which to be exact it had been 4 years and 2 months today. Coincidence, he called around midnight as what he always did. But the date had been reminded each of us to just recalled back all the memories. To remember each and everything sweet and loveable moments that we had, so much that I would not and I hope I will not forget every single thing. But the sad things, the mistakes that I had done overwhelmed the love that we shared and cherish together. The wrong steps that I had took had put this relationship to the wall and cracked. Like glass slammed on the wall. 

What else can I say about this relationship? Never end? He did put the full stop the other day. But I did told him that he can never be replaced. He still contacted me like usual, we still talked like how we used to. I can't lie to myself that I still can't get rid of him. He is that special to me and I don't want that to end. By reminding myself that we are not together like last time, it bring my tears. My sadness that I can't hold him in my arms, I can't be in his arms either. The warm hugs that I always had last time, to cry on his shoulder and to sit beside him again, that is all that I can dream of. To make it happen, I can't tell, because Allah have a better plan for each and everyone of us in the future. InsyaAllah, when that happen I shall praising to Him after all these happened, I had learned to be a better person. Mistakes that had been done, I can never change, but I shall learn. 

To love and mr you know who you are, both of you did had the place in my life. 

For you Mr you know who you are, as for our future, I shall leave it to Allah. I can never tell more than that. My heart is to the love but if Allah wrote something else, please forgive me. I cannot give more than I have in this life. I appreciate on what you had done in the couple months but I'm sorry, I don't think that we can make it that far. I'm deeply sorry. 

Seventeenth, you had thought me so much that I can remember and I shall leave this to faith. 

Rein, and this is my seventeenth story. Love much.