rainbow's.of.rein

Dear Cinta, Love, Heart, Sayang, Eternity and Priority, It had came to each of us and it had took place for quite sometime until me myself had made mistakes to this relationship. Where it begin and how it ends, all had become messed up and yet until this moment no one can ever think of that we will end in this way. Still remember 17 June 2008? 11.32AM. After send one of our friend to LCCT? That is the day that you had come back to me and ask if you can sit in by my side and in my heart. The night before we went out together for dinner. Yes. All those memories that NEVER can be deleted. Every single piece of it, I still remember the day that you had promised to be by my side forever. Days went off, so do months and years that had we faced together.  Either friends neither family, all had known each other very well as we always be here and there together. Never been separated to be exact. Eyes that looked towards us, gave us such look. Mouth that spoke about us, had talked so muc

A date to remember. 17 May 2012. Yes. This date. It was supposed to be a date to celebrate. But this is the date that the relationship end. After few days of not talking, which to be exact not even any contact, it end. What more can I say other than accepting what had happened between us and yet keep it as a memories. THE END of HS. :/ A new chapter of the New Rein shall begin soon. And yes. It starts today either. After few months of not talking to each other, we had became friends again. And yes. He is the man that I used to love, to cherish and the one that had become a better person. *I think*. Nothing more than thank you Allah. Alhamdullilah for the day that you had gave to me. I can't be more than this happy person on earth when he is back into my arms. Not as my Love my as my very good friend that never turn back to me.  Alhamdullilah. After few months of torturing of heart, part of it had came back. Not for the sake of love that I'm looking at, but forgiveness th

Hello~ It's my second post for this time. Life. Clueless. But something is progressing. This happened when she did update her status about being patient and stay there. Happens that he commented around the same time that I did. And we keep continuing replying each other. And now I'm still msg-ing with him. ALHAMDULILLAH. That's how he expect me to update my blog and yes I am!! Alhamdulillah.. He is talking to me now. He is giving me advises that I can't think of. He is the one that is there for me. After all that happened between us, he is still there. Ya Allah, show me the best way in my life. I had went through all these after what I had done to him.  Praying hard for a better life. Please be with me dear luck. I can't never ask for more from anyone. No more.  Much love. 

Mine, Haris Syazwan. It's been weeks for us. Between me and you, I cant predict anything and I don't want to be one either. All I want at this moment is for you to appreciate me as the way I did now. If we are meant to be together but who can predict the future right? Things had happened and with the small mistake that I had done and yes. Until now at this moment you did not find me. If she is that important to you, why came into my life? Why giving me hopes when you can't be there? Nice one Haris. You had just make me fall down then again. Thank you so much. I should not be writing this as this is so not private as how you want it to be. But who should I spoke to. Who should I refer to when people around is having their good life? I can't just ran to them and tell everything about us. I just not such of person.  To you Mr Muhammad Haris Syazwan, thanks for making me in such of way. You just did that. You make me cried for you. Things that I only can do it with ex la

Its been awhile. But never been forgotten. All the decisions making had lead me into something that me myself can't figure it out. Sometimes, making decisions never been easy when you have to think about others feelings. I can't never satisfy everyone but more or less I will try my level best to be make them happy. By the end of the day, you will might need them either. So the best is not to think about yours before others. Most of the people told that, yours first then others. But I can't never do that as I scared that might hurt them the most. FAIRYTALE.  See. All those wise talk, nice words never been easy to make it in this REAL world. Can you really give something or someone to others when you really love it? Most will get the NO instantly. So yeah, I had made mine and I know that decision at one day had made someone or some of the people around not that happy. But think, now or forever they want to be in lies? I can't lie to myself that I don't love you. Yes