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Who the hell gave me this idea. I mean to wrote this Pre & Post. Sounds like a wedding post here. Might look like one. But hey, it's my birthday that I'm talking about. Lets see what else that I can wrote it about.  PRE BIRTHDAY, which fall a day before the birthday date; 14 Oct. I went out with my dearly "lesbian" partner to find stuffs in Ikea. Went there and end up we hang out with other friends also. After some walkout and go round and round, end up I got my favourite cake! Sponge cheese cake! SO happy! Even it's not that expensive like what other people want, it is THAT nice OK. Special thanks to my ex colleague and her friend. Appreciate it so much! I really love it. Hugs. This was unexpected and so did they come over at the first place.  POST BIRTHDAY! This is the amazing one so far. Me and best friend went for Grand Lexis PD. Like how we always did. Pleasuring ourselves after one great escapes to another. This time the Grand Lexis is our

It's been awhile right people? Anyway, let's start and update the whole thing now now. Since I'm yet very happy.  15 Oct 2012.  The best date ever in this whole year and yet very very memorable to me. WHY is that? Lots of updates and HEY! It's my BIRTHDAY! I turned 23 years old and this is amazing. Feeling of being in this age? I don't know yet. CLUELESS maybe. HAHA. The BEST birthday give, *let's see who had gave me such of wide smile on my birthday* LOVE; MuhammadHafiz - This is what he had send to me. *even we are in the big fight right at this moment* :- Epy besdy 2 u, epy besdy 2 u, epy besdy 2 my cinta epy besdy 2 u.. selamat ulng taun ke 23 syg.. hope besdy awk taun nie membwa seribu erti dlm hdup awk, org tau org byk uat awk mkn atu smpi awk jd gle.. org respect awk sbb awk usaha gak dpt kn org.. akhirnye org jd milik awk gak.. org hlng xnk lyn awk 4 bln tu bkn pe org sje nk tgk awk cm mne kalo org xde dlm hdup awk.. tp terbkti awk xbleh hdup

Hopefully at this time everyone does not get tired from my unending story about us. Alhamdulillah, as for now, we are happy with each other. No other person had tear us apart and as for now, we are that happy.  Both of us had a good time whenever we talked, laughed to each other, make silly conversations become so interesting. After all, yes, I am happy as for now. Whichever sadness that had happened between us, I shall forget and try to make this relationship at this time; grows better and stays forever. InsyaAllah. Dear Muhammad Hafiz, PLEASE let this happen forever. Nothing else that I ever want. Me and just me until Allah end the relationship between us. Allah had put the faith for us to let this relationship grows and I really hope this will be forever.  Muhammad Hafiz and Noryadzrein; THIS IS US

Hello everyone! As I browse through YouTube, watched some of the videos around and I end up with this song. Quite old one but the lyrics shown how much this woman missed the guy and this is what I feel. I miss my CINTA so much. He is that far and we did not contact that much like how we used to. I MISS HIM! Ya Allah, please let this love grows and never die in each other heart. Let's enjoy the lyric.  Tergoda aku 'tuk berfikir  Dia yang tercinta  Mengapa t'lah lama tak nampak  Dirimu disini  Jangankan ingin ku tersenyum  Tak ada gairah  Kuingin s'lalu bersamamu  Kini ku resah...  Diriku lemah tanpamu  Gapai semua jemariku  Rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu  Kuingin bersama berdua selamanya  Jika kubuka mata ini  Kuingin s'lalu ada dirimu  Dalam kelemahan hati ini  Bersamamu... Aku tegar...  Aku tegar Song : Tegar; Singer : Rossa Right at this moment all I can think about is having him for my entire life. Please pray the best for us dear

Well hello everyone!  Greetings from the office PC! :D It's been awhile since the last post right? *like I do have any readers* HAHA. Lots of thing happened in my entire life. Where shall I begin? Too much to talk about as this had changed my life and my thought and also my entire mood! Sounds so happy? YES I AM! On your mart, get set.. GO! Myself ; I had went through one major operation in my entire life. I had never been in one before this. After all, it is just minor operation in the hospital. Of course! It takes less than one hour to be inside the Operation Theatre and more than 2 months to be fully recovered! Sigh. The one that I talked about is Tonsil Operation. This freaking thing had live in my throat since God knows when. When tonsil food dietary is not followed, that is what happen, it's getting bigger and that's one of the reason why I still keep having high temperature fever. When it is more than few times in one month, doctor in the clinic had suggest me

Seventeenth, the number that I shall remember the most. This is the date where everything begins between me and him. This date always bring me back to the memories that we shared and we sailed with each other for the past few years. Which to be exact it had been 4 years and 2 months today. Coincidence, he called around midnight as what he always did. But the date had been reminded each of us to just recalled back all the memories. To remember each and everything sweet and loveable moments that we had, so much that I would not and I hope I will not forget every single thing. But the sad things, the mistakes that I had done overwhelmed the love that we shared and cherish together. The wrong steps that I had took had put this relationship to the wall and cracked. Like glass slammed on the wall.  What else can I say about this relationship? Never end? He did put the full stop the other day. But I did told him that he can never be replaced. He still contacted me like usual, we still talk

Hey all. By reading what I had been writing for the past few months, I think all had been WELL informed about this HIM. The love of my life and the only one that I want. BUT *see*, we had been talking about this to each other and had clarified with all these since I have to know what is happening around me now. After all, this is my life. My future that we are talking about. Thus, when he called the other day, and since that is quite long conversation between us, I decided to ask him. Yes, end up he told me that between us are JUST FRIENDS. Nothing more than that. He is part of my family and so do I. That is all that he said and obviously what he wanted.  Thus, this so called waiting Love Story had come to the end. After 4 years and 1 months, the up's down's and all those laughter neither tears all had end. As what he wanted and what I had asked him, there we go. Separated to each other and on our own ways of living. CERITA KAMI TAMAT. *really?* Still can't believe that a

Hey its been awhile after the last post. And yeay! Here I am still typing out and trying to update the whole thing about it. Where and how to start after all these and that happened? OK let start! 1) HIM. He came and went off. Hey, in a good way ok? He went off for FREAKING six months for the Police training. Blergh. We don't even say bye bye to each other. I was in Singapore when the day he off for the training. BUT! What happened is he still contact me whenever he is free. I supposed. I don't know who else that he called but still. He remembered me! HAHA. So far, me and him just fine. I did found out who is he calling around for the last month and yet until now. Don't ask where and how I found out. I just knew and I have TRUSTED sources that I depends on. Still. Nothing much between us and the stories. He is that far. Hoping much on HIM? Yes, maybe. I don't know what to think and how long I can wait for this to be happen. I mean the HAPPY and LOVE moments. Who knows

Dear Cinta, Love, Heart, Sayang, Eternity and Priority, It had came to each of us and it had took place for quite sometime until me myself had made mistakes to this relationship. Where it begin and how it ends, all had become messed up and yet until this moment no one can ever think of that we will end in this way. Still remember 17 June 2008? 11.32AM. After send one of our friend to LCCT? That is the day that you had come back to me and ask if you can sit in by my side and in my heart. The night before we went out together for dinner. Yes. All those memories that NEVER can be deleted. Every single piece of it, I still remember the day that you had promised to be by my side forever. Days went off, so do months and years that had we faced together.  Either friends neither family, all had known each other very well as we always be here and there together. Never been separated to be exact. Eyes that looked towards us, gave us such look. Mouth that spoke about us, had talked so muc

A date to remember. 17 May 2012. Yes. This date. It was supposed to be a date to celebrate. But this is the date that the relationship end. After few days of not talking, which to be exact not even any contact, it end. What more can I say other than accepting what had happened between us and yet keep it as a memories. THE END of HS. :/ A new chapter of the New Rein shall begin soon. And yes. It starts today either. After few months of not talking to each other, we had became friends again. And yes. He is the man that I used to love, to cherish and the one that had become a better person. *I think*. Nothing more than thank you Allah. Alhamdullilah for the day that you had gave to me. I can't be more than this happy person on earth when he is back into my arms. Not as my Love my as my very good friend that never turn back to me.  Alhamdullilah. After few months of torturing of heart, part of it had came back. Not for the sake of love that I'm looking at, but forgiveness th

Hello~ It's my second post for this time. Life. Clueless. But something is progressing. This happened when she did update her status about being patient and stay there. Happens that he commented around the same time that I did. And we keep continuing replying each other. And now I'm still msg-ing with him. ALHAMDULILLAH. That's how he expect me to update my blog and yes I am!! Alhamdulillah.. He is talking to me now. He is giving me advises that I can't think of. He is the one that is there for me. After all that happened between us, he is still there. Ya Allah, show me the best way in my life. I had went through all these after what I had done to him.  Praying hard for a better life. Please be with me dear luck. I can't never ask for more from anyone. No more.  Much love. 

Mine, Haris Syazwan. It's been weeks for us. Between me and you, I cant predict anything and I don't want to be one either. All I want at this moment is for you to appreciate me as the way I did now. If we are meant to be together but who can predict the future right? Things had happened and with the small mistake that I had done and yes. Until now at this moment you did not find me. If she is that important to you, why came into my life? Why giving me hopes when you can't be there? Nice one Haris. You had just make me fall down then again. Thank you so much. I should not be writing this as this is so not private as how you want it to be. But who should I spoke to. Who should I refer to when people around is having their good life? I can't just ran to them and tell everything about us. I just not such of person.  To you Mr Muhammad Haris Syazwan, thanks for making me in such of way. You just did that. You make me cried for you. Things that I only can do it with ex la

Its been awhile. But never been forgotten. All the decisions making had lead me into something that me myself can't figure it out. Sometimes, making decisions never been easy when you have to think about others feelings. I can't never satisfy everyone but more or less I will try my level best to be make them happy. By the end of the day, you will might need them either. So the best is not to think about yours before others. Most of the people told that, yours first then others. But I can't never do that as I scared that might hurt them the most. FAIRYTALE.  See. All those wise talk, nice words never been easy to make it in this REAL world. Can you really give something or someone to others when you really love it? Most will get the NO instantly. So yeah, I had made mine and I know that decision at one day had made someone or some of the people around not that happy. But think, now or forever they want to be in lies? I can't lie to myself that I don't love you. Yes

Hey yellow everyone! :D Setelah TER-meroyan utk beberapa ketika, here I am. Back again in this blog. Utk apa? to tell stories la of course! haha. I don't want to tell in details pun. Buat apa. Blog is something that u can share moments of your life. *thanks Ai Vern for this* :) Me love him. very much. everyone knows about it kan? but yeah, dia tanak kat aku balik pun. And hell yeah. masa kenduri abg dia aritu aku ber-drama kat kenduri tu. mentang2 dia kacak as a pengapit, kemain kau lg kan rein. hahah. btw, tanak tell in details. hahah. the most important thing is that aku mmg ratu air mata, melalak la cite dia. kan kan. he have that place in my heart but i don't have it anymore in His. so, mari tabahkan hati and try to forget. even it is very and super hard, TRY. aku masih mencari cara sampai la 15 April 2012. Brainwashed by his sister and akak2 ipar dia jugak. Tahniah la cite dia masa tu. Sakit jiwa je mcm. Yes. Ego dia mmg penuh tebal gila punya. So utk tidak men-dra

Selamat Datang April 2012. :) Apekah yg nak dibebelkan? Not so much other than cite desperate aku. hehe. Btw, 01st April 2012 had started tiring and yet fun. Kenapakah? Sebab that day had brought my smile. NO. Dia tak pandang aku pun lagi. Apetah lagi get back together. Harapan nusa dan bangsa. So, kenduri tahlil dekat rumah makcik dia. Yes, I had been invited to his MakNgah's house. Parents dia ajak. Familia dia pun ajak. So aku pegi je la. Nak di jadi kan cite, dia tatau pun aku pegi. *agaknye la* sbb masa dia nampak aku kat sana, he is one of the kind punya buat muka. Heh. Segala xtvt haritu mcm biasa la. Orang kenduri. What do you expect? Lepas kenduri, sesi birthday pulak. Pak Su's.. Sebab kembar. So mcm comel je sambut birthday together2. hehe. Abes kek, kita makan!! And hell yeah. Aku suka tgk dia. RINDU la. Mcm biasa la dia. Buat tatau. Buat ta nampak. Ok, itu sakit. Tapi at least aku boleh tgk muka dia. Aku tau dia sihat. Dia kurus. Dia hensem. Ok over. I miss

What else yg boleh aku ckp psl CINTA nie? Semua pun serba tak kena nak cite. Why we have to fall in love when we can't give so much to it? Question. KENAPA? Bila aku dah stop dgn dia and dia and dia jugak. I realized that I can't love anyone else other than you. Aku sedar yg aku xboleh live my life without you. Sounds so desperate. Tapi ape yg org lain nampak and rasa dgn ape yg aku dah lalui selama nie. YES. dia mmg SGT ego. SGT kasar. SGT control. SGT pemarah *nie aku suka lawan*. SGT ikot otak dia je. SGT emo and yet SGT SGT SGT tatau malu *sume pun aku lawan rasanya*. AND hell yeah. dia jugak yg aku carik sekarang nie. DARI dulu sampai sekarang. To everyone of you, yes! selama nie aku buta, tak nampak and tak hargai macam mana dia hargai aku. FYI, dia tak pernah buat macam mana aku buat kat dia pun. Aku yg bodoh and tak pernah cukup dgn ape yg aku ada. Yes, dia memang sgt kasar and that's the only reason kenapa aku buat hal dulu. Ngaku sekarang nie aku yg buat dia. Bk

hebat gila bila lama nak mati tak update blog. WHATSSSS UPPP. hahaha. life. its ruining. what else can i say? dh mmg ruin. sigh. up's and down's buat jadi DOWN memanjang. life kan. what else can i say. oh yeah. 4 years of relationship pun boleh RUIN jugak. hebat x? haha. what to do? things happened. just accept the way it is la kan? boleh sape2 ubah what happened? so yeah. work wise. IDK. gila kau tatau. ish ish ish. currently dekat travel agent after 8 months struggle dkt hotel life. hebat. never had this kind of working imagination. haha. nampak sgt pemalas dia mcm mana kan kan? but kalau pikir balik, this is the time that i met all those kind of people yg bermcm ragam. which by the end of the day, aku sendiri boleh kenang mcm2. haha. love life. A LOT. explains kan? every single thing that happened. tayah la bgtau kot. but deep inside me, dah mcm novel hati aku nie. haha. segala plan, segala susah payah tak berbaloi bila dia ckp, "dah tak sayang". weyh, easy gila. i