Thus, this so called waiting Love Story had come to the end. After 4 years and 1 months, the up's down's and all those laughter neither tears all had end. As what he wanted and what I had asked him, there we go. Separated to each other and on our own ways of living. CERITA KAMI TAMAT. *really?* Still can't believe that all this had come to the end. So much of our memories with each other. How can I just let go all those? Ya Allah, help me to be in a better place and with someone that really deserve me. It is never been easy no matter how and what.
First love and true love are two different things. Which way you understand it, your heart and what you had went through is the best teacher. So, no one can tell how long will it take to forget one person; PLUS that person had been with you for so long. This is what happened to me and my best friend. Few times of breakups and rebounds make us in such. HARD TO FORGET or for my side, NEVER. Yet until this moment I keep thinking about what he is up to, had he took his meals etc etc. Everything about him. Every single steps that I took, there will be him in my story. That is how much he means to me.
Even now, I'm still trying to accept the fact that he is no one to me. At this moment, we are no one to each other but the way he treated me, still like someone to him. Me? I do care him like how we used to be. Even how many times that I act like I don't care, I still did. Why? Because he means the world to me. Not just me, the family too. Back to those days, he had done so much to help the family. That's why no matter how hard the situation will be between us, we still together. It's not just us, it's about the family too. For others, they will say that normal things, breakups and stuffs. But us, the way I take it is THAT different. For friends and peoples that been seen and with us for along the time we were together, they will know. They know how much love from both sides families had been given in this relationship.
After all, both of us still in contact with each other and we still tell loves and misses. 12 years of growing up together, I can assure that NO ONE can tear us apart. That what it takes if both of us meant to another person in our life later. He/ she shall accept that we are best friends and that will never change forever. Both of our family is our family; if you get what I mean. Till death do us apart. The first word that we said when we vow our love and that will never ends forever.
Dear Mr you know who you are,
I'm sorry for not being the one that you want. I can't love you the way I love him and I can't assure anything in the relationship that you desire. When my heart are ready, I will definitely go for this. But at this moment, I'm deeply sorry because Love is something that no one of us can force it. It will naturally comes when the time come. Allah knows the best for us and if I meant for you, nothing can ever change it. As for now, let us be like this.