rainbow's.of.rein

Seventeenth, the number that I shall remember the most. This is the date where everything begins between me and him. This date always bring me back to the memories that we shared and we sailed with each other for the past few years. Which to be exact it had been 4 years and 2 months today. Coincidence, he called around midnight as what he always did. But the date had been reminded each of us to just recalled back all the memories. To remember each and everything sweet and loveable moments that we had, so much that I would not and I hope I will not forget every single thing. But the sad things, the mistakes that I had done overwhelmed the love that we shared and cherish together. The wrong steps that I had took had put this relationship to the wall and cracked. Like glass slammed on the wall.  What else can I say about this relationship? Never end? He did put the full stop the other day. But I did told him that he can never be replaced. He still contacted me like usual, we still ...

Hey all. By reading what I had been writing for the past few months, I think all had been WELL informed about this HIM. The love of my life and the only one that I want. BUT *see*, we had been talking about this to each other and had clarified with all these since I have to know what is happening around me now. After all, this is my life. My future that we are talking about. Thus, when he called the other day, and since that is quite long conversation between us, I decided to ask him. Yes, end up he told me that between us are JUST FRIENDS. Nothing more than that. He is part of my family and so do I. That is all that he said and obviously what he wanted.  Thus, this so called waiting Love Story had come to the end. After 4 years and 1 months, the up's down's and all those laughter neither tears all had end. As what he wanted and what I had asked him, there we go. Separated to each other and on our own ways of living. CERITA KAMI TAMAT. *really?* Still can't believe that a...

Hey its been awhile after the last post. And yeay! Here I am still typing out and trying to update the whole thing about it. Where and how to start after all these and that happened? OK let start! 1) HIM. He came and went off. Hey, in a good way ok? He went off for FREAKING six months for the Police training. Blergh. We don't even say bye bye to each other. I was in Singapore when the day he off for the training. BUT! What happened is he still contact me whenever he is free. I supposed. I don't know who else that he called but still. He remembered me! HAHA. So far, me and him just fine. I did found out who is he calling around for the last month and yet until now. Don't ask where and how I found out. I just knew and I have TRUSTED sources that I depends on. Still. Nothing much between us and the stories. He is that far. Hoping much on HIM? Yes, maybe. I don't know what to think and how long I can wait for this to be happen. I mean the HAPPY and LOVE moments. Who knows...

Dear Cinta, Love, Heart, Sayang, Eternity and Priority, It had came to each of us and it had took place for quite sometime until me myself had made mistakes to this relationship. Where it begin and how it ends, all had become messed up and yet until this moment no one can ever think of that we will end in this way. Still remember 17 June 2008? 11.32AM. After send one of our friend to LCCT? That is the day that you had come back to me and ask if you can sit in by my side and in my heart. The night before we went out together for dinner. Yes. All those memories that NEVER can be deleted. Every single piece of it, I still remember the day that you had promised to be by my side forever. Days went off, so do months and years that had we faced together.  Either friends neither family, all had known each other very well as we always be here and there together. Never been separated to be exact. Eyes that looked towards us, gave us such look. Mouth that spoke about us, had talked so...

A date to remember. 17 May 2012. Yes. This date. It was supposed to be a date to celebrate. But this is the date that the relationship end. After few days of not talking, which to be exact not even any contact, it end. What more can I say other than accepting what had happened between us and yet keep it as a memories. THE END of HS. :/ A new chapter of the New Rein shall begin soon. And yes. It starts today either. After few months of not talking to each other, we had became friends again. And yes. He is the man that I used to love, to cherish and the one that had become a better person. *I think*. Nothing more than thank you Allah. Alhamdullilah for the day that you had gave to me. I can't be more than this happy person on earth when he is back into my arms. Not as my Love my as my very good friend that never turn back to me.  Alhamdullilah. After few months of torturing of heart, part of it had came back. Not for the sake of love that I'm looking at, but forgiveness th...

Hello~ It's my second post for this time. Life. Clueless. But something is progressing. This happened when she did update her status about being patient and stay there. Happens that he commented around the same time that I did. And we keep continuing replying each other. And now I'm still msg-ing with him. ALHAMDULILLAH. That's how he expect me to update my blog and yes I am!! Alhamdulillah.. He is talking to me now. He is giving me advises that I can't think of. He is the one that is there for me. After all that happened between us, he is still there. Ya Allah, show me the best way in my life. I had went through all these after what I had done to him.  Praying hard for a better life. Please be with me dear luck. I can't never ask for more from anyone. No more.  Much love. 

Mine, Haris Syazwan. It's been weeks for us. Between me and you, I cant predict anything and I don't want to be one either. All I want at this moment is for you to appreciate me as the way I did now. If we are meant to be together but who can predict the future right? Things had happened and with the small mistake that I had done and yes. Until now at this moment you did not find me. If she is that important to you, why came into my life? Why giving me hopes when you can't be there? Nice one Haris. You had just make me fall down then again. Thank you so much. I should not be writing this as this is so not private as how you want it to be. But who should I spoke to. Who should I refer to when people around is having their good life? I can't just ran to them and tell everything about us. I just not such of person.  To you Mr Muhammad Haris Syazwan, thanks for making me in such of way. You just did that. You make me cried for you. Things that I only can do it with ex la...